Fixing Things

Beyond Me

Some things need to be fixed so badly. Important things, lifetime challenges. but some things are just beyond my capabilities to repair. I know it, but yet I feel a sense of hopeless failure and guilt because I failed to fix them, still cannot fix them and know in my heart that the means of repairing them will forever be beyond my reach and limited ability. My mind knows this and yet my heart aches with hopelessness and accuses me of never doing enough, though I did all I could do and more than most would have done in my situation. Today I am tired but there is no resting from life, it goes on even when we feel we can't walk another step we are forced along on the path by forces stronger than ourselves. The best I can hope for is a respite in an oasis somewhere along this arduous path where things are so broken and I can't fix them.